Well, I haven't been to school for like 4 days already and it isn't a good thing as school still operates as per normal.
I've been trying very hard to get back to work but it all seems abit weird. Guess I have to find back that momentum that kept me going for prelims.
Ms Chiew sent me a note of congratulations for my improvement. I have to keep that up already and push myself further.
Going to sleep already. There's SCHOOL tomorrow. =D
Monday, October 08, 2007
I'm back once again.
Couldn't get back to studying as PLANNED but I know I have to get back to it. Only less than 2 months to the start of DINNER&DANCE, that's how close 'A's is.
Hais. Well, Congrats to E-bong Lim, our Da Jie for getting in the HONOUR ROLL. What an honour. the 1st to get in from the 29thSC. Well, we have a 3As target for each of us. So we better achieve it.
On a lighter note, I re-met my kindergarden mate, Jasmine. It's like a reunion and we were pretty close for sometime. She holds the record for attending the most birthday party out of my friends at 5.
Anyway, I've gotta get back to the BOOKS. -my AAAA goal for 'A's
Sunday, October 07, 2007
It has been sometime since the last time that I've actually blogged.
The last time that I really actually faithfully blogged was because it helped improve my English.
Well, now it's GP that i'm not doing well in.
Hais. Well, this brings back the nostalgic feeling since that Children's Day 4 years back that I started this blog. It's like so many things has happened since that. I took my 'O' Levels like 2 years ago already, even though it was the BIG thing then. Now it's the 'A's. I've never struggled in an education system like I did in the 'A' Levels system. In the past, getting A for maths was the norm.
I can't even remember any exam form the day I was born til 'O' that I didn't get an A.
My 1st exam in NYJC for Maths gave me my lowest point in Maths. A 'U' grade was the thing that almost killed off all my confidence. I'm glad that I didn't give up. I know my 29th will always push me through all my tough times.
Even in the Prelims, I got BBD for H2s and CS for H1s. I have to thank a few that helped me in my difficult time. It's kinda sounding like a THANK YOU SPEECH.
Well, the top of the list would be my father and mother. (Kinda the NORM) Even after my ESUSS showing in the midyears, my father have been trying to find ways for me to improve my grade. He tried to get my down for tution. Although it did not materialised and I kind of rejected the idea, I appreciated the help that he tried to give. It was his confidence that I will do well that really helped.
Next would be my Secondary school Maths Teacher, Mrs Han. I remembered during the teachers' day celebration day that I went back to Peirce. We all discussed our results but I did not reveal them. It was really bad then as I did pretty badly for Mid Years. Hais. Well, she gave me that confidence that I can make it. I know I could but it's always good to be reassured.
The list is non-exhaustive and the next group of people that I really want to thank is the 29th.
You guys helped me though this period. I'm not those mushy-mushy kind of person and I won't say things that are not truth. I stand by my standard and it is most difficult to live by your own standard. I tried but I kept losing confidence. Thanks for just being around for me. =D
Well, there are the Norines and the Hong Guangs that I need to thanks.
I really wonder, after such a long dead period, will there still be anyone that will read my blog?
Well, all I know is that I can share my thoughts here. =D
Friday, October 05, 2007
I'm now blogging in school in the SC Room..
I still haven't found a solution for my problem...
Well, I think that I will never find it lar...
It's something I'll never solve lar...
There are problems within the leaders in the NY...
Though I'm not really suppose to reveal it lar..
I think that there's really some people out there that really care about my situation..
Really thankful to them...
Like Xuans and Qians..
Haha.. Thanks girls..
Thanks for being there for me..
I'm going for Night Study le...
Studying for Econs..
And I heard from Ms Teo that my maths lecture test results not bad..
Monday, August 21, 2006
I'm back blogging and I've updated a couple of stuff in my Blogskin...
There's this new Marque thing scrolling away and I've added the 'Exit' section...
Well, I've decided really to make it an effort to come back blogging...
I'm really studying more now..
And I've passed my Econs case study test...
So it's getting better as I study..
I'm hungry now..
Haven eaten lunch yet..
So many things have passed this month..
I've liked a new girl since 20th July but I don't know what to do from now on..
I can clearly see that she's shunning me now...
It's obvious right?
And the problem doesn't end there...
I think that there's someone else who likes her and have been showing me the blacken face ever since I told him I liked her..
What to do when he's someone that I'll probably see like everyday...
I don't know already lar..
Don't know what to do about her..
Don't know what to do about him...
Dragonball Cup is this friday already and we're like a couple more weeks to Promos...
Gotta go all out to Mug already...
Determined not to be waived with my decision!
Sunday, August 20, 2006
From the last depressed entry,
I finally gotten out of it..
And I'm studying alr...
Well.. I passed my Chinese, which gives me some sort of a confidence booster..
Well, I also have to acknowledge a friend..
She helped me out of the 'depression' by talking and consoling and comforting me..
I'll work much harder from now on..
Failure is not a failure when Lesson is LEARNT! Peace Outx..
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
We've gotten most of our results back alr..
Don't need to guess the results lar...
I, not proudly, proclaim that I failed all my 3H2 and H1 subject...
Well, let me reflect on my poorly done MYE...
Firstly, I did not study much..
Well, I assume that it's going to be much like the secondary school format...
Sho it's very unprepared...
I hate that feeling but I can't avoid it..
Secondly, it's the World Cup...
I'm not pushing any blame but then I can't focus much and I lack the self-discipline to study instead,
I watched the World Cup...
Believe me and this is going to be a Motivational Statement for myself...
Jia You Sebastian!
Promos will be much tougher but I have to get over it in certain style...
Let's talk about the happier stuff...
DRAGON is the CHAMPION HOUSE OF THE YEAR...
Thank you Runners for making it possible...
Thanks Jo'An for working hard...
Thanks Ren Kai for assissting Jo'An..
Thanks Germaine for running around...
Thanks Jia Ying for getting the people to do the stuff...
Thanks Jing Sheng for the cheerleading...
Thanks Shao Jie for being my co-Kacang Puteh man..
and last but not least,
Thanks Sylvia for doing running too...
Monday, July 10, 2006
Voices of A Lost Soul
I feel lost even as I'm writing this
As she slowly becomes his
her special someone I've never seen
but surely it it his win!
I fought bravely in this losing battle
now that the results have been settled
I can only reminicise the past
that laughter at VCH I saw last
that special moment at Carls' Jr
that enjoyable talk at the labs so near
that camp which she perservered
that dinner of the ECC we held so dear
that SMS I first sent her
has slowly becoms memories of mere
significance they might have held
but surely now they are to her
they're worth nothing at all to remember.
Voices of A Broken Heart
No longer am I wanted
as I am left neglected.
No longer are we in talking terms
No longer are my feelings to her firm.
It has been shaken.
It has been stagnant.
It feels like slaps on my face
in this one relationship I once thought I could ace.
This relationship that never started,
the one that never did materialised,
sometimes I wonder why is this
that she only cares about her special his
Perhaps her love has became their love
but definitely I play no part
I tried to act happy
but as I hold control of that broken heart,
I know for sure that it'll stay that way.
In the midst of the Battle
Here I am fighting hard
But what's the result that I stand to see
I'm fighting a losing battle
Small me in Big World,
with lots of enemies out there.
Probably they are not my enemies,
though sometimes they see me as one.
Faulting me and bursting my egos.
I'm going flat soon.
During A Battle
I'm living in a world that's full of colours.
However sweet it seems.
I'm hurt inside and nobody can understand.
The feeling of someone that's detested by others.
Can someone please give me a helping hand?
Your little friend down here is losing this battle.
'A battle for popularity or friends?' You might ask.
It's a battle for his own stand and things he believe.
Save him if you can. He's not longer seeking for relationship.
He wants things that he have the ability to achieve
But he lacks the heart and strength to fit the mental aggression he has.
Before A Battle
Students' voting are tomorrow
but it seems never ending.
It might bring them some sorrow
but they should never be complaining.
You're voted according to your abilities,
never mind if you're misjudged.
Coz I know how you feel,
I've been there and done that.
Trust me and don't worry,
if you're good someone will vote you.
J2 ain't that fierce,
as some of you say they are.
They're a bunch of friendly people,
not forgetting the fun and joy they've brought us.
Think of orientation 1 and your OGLs,
Coz they're J2s too!
Lost & Found
As the rain drops are visible,
I found out that things became impossible.
I thought i'm found.
But I'm now lost in the new world.
Hugh findings with the small little me,
with small improvement and a hugh step behind.
I'm losing all the grip.
Like there's no water and i wanna take a sip.
Seemingly stupid at all I know,
things have changed to be beyond me.
As the rain flows,
my heart sinks.
As the wind blows
I'm on the brink.
On the brink of dying
and I'm crying.
Won't you save me once again.
As the trees sway,
my heart is dead.
As the grass wave,
you once said.
You said you'll save me from anything,
won't you save me again.
how is it possible that I fly high?
My broken wings are still under maintenance,
in that place without enterance.
I have to do it alone?
Without a chance of me making a clone?
I guess I'm now without sense,
with my heart getting dense.
It's such a burden,
with me trying to hide it behind the curtain.
I sit here with the pain.
Combined poem by Tabii, Saffiee, Qiyunn & Me
Windmill windmill for the land,
turn forever hand in hand.
At the beach, you'll see the sand.
Make sandcastles with your hand.
Sit and listen to the band,
listen for hours on end.
Wind chimes wind chimes in the air,
send my love to those i care.
Those who read this with a bang,
come and join us as a gang.
Soccer & I before the 2005 Champs Lge Final
I was young when I watched soccer.
Saw this big team named Manchester.
I supported them like any others.
They won championship like entertainers.
Everytime I watch this big game,
named Man U vs. Liverpool,
I found it a little lame
that my Man U always falls to the pool.
Two-one or one-nil it doesn't matter,
it matters when the losers are Manchester.
I don't understand the logic behind it.
That why Man U always loses it.
Then I changed over to Liverpool.
That time it's 2001 January No. 2,
KOP won the trebles too.
I felt like the change was worth the while,
until Man U won the title by a mile.
I never regretted changing over to Pool,
coz I know that it's really cool.
This time they travel to Istanbul,
with Milan fans all shouting 'Boo'
I don't care if they're playing fool
but I guess it's really uncool.
I want them to win the Champs.
So that I can call Rafa our Lamp.
The light that changes Liverpool into
the next EPL contender too.