__things that happened
11:55 pm
Heys...
MT 'O's is over..
Hees..
The good thing is that..
The bad thing is that I dno if I wrote out of point for the Ying Yong Wen...
Haiz..
Was at Roy's House the whole day..
Playing soccer..
Haiz..
Sho out of form..
Hmmm..
Den went home late lor..
When I reached home,
My cousins were like in my room and all that..
Using my laptop without permission..
ARGHX...
Hees..
Was like creating Bell's prezzie..
Sho tough lor..
Hope she'll like it..
Peace Outx...
Monday, May 30, 2005
thoughts flow
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9:42 pm
Heys...
I've been studying all the way since I woke up..
I woke up at 1pm and I started studying straight away..
Ate breakfast the same time I started doing zao ju with all the 'Starred' up words..
Den I went out for dinner..
Like for 1 and a half hours..
That's all the time I din study today..
From 1 to 9 minus 1 and a half hour...
That's 6 1/2 hour...
Wah..
I've never mugged for that much in a day..
Especially if it's on my own...
Now in my brain is all the complicated cheena words..
And all the 'zao ju's...
Complicated Thoughts
I'm living in a weird world now.
With everything changing all the time.
I don't want to think of any other thoughts.
Besides my studies and important things.
She's considered important
in my previous type of life.
I don't know if I'm still feeling it.
But I'm afraid of feeling it.
Even if it still stays there,
I'll juz act that it's not there.
I can't and don't want to
feel hurt again and anymore.
As I prepare to go into
that beautiful place that I once looked forward to.
I lie in my bed
with the thoughts in my head.
Flowing pass and impacting hard.
But I juz shake it off behind my yard.
Things that changed quick and fast.
Disappear like those quick dust.
Going to sleep soon.
Coz tomoro's the 'O's..
Adrenaline still flowing..
Peace Outx...
Sunday, May 29, 2005
thoughts flow
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2:30 am
Heys...
It's 2:30 am and I'm still not asleep yet...
Haiz..
Chinese 'O's like sho near liao...
Hees..
I actually did study a bit today...
Studied the different Zao Ju from all the different school's mid-yr exam paper...
Den work out new sentences on my own..
But I still dunno how to do some...
Haiz..
Hopefully someone can teach me..
Or at least the dictionary can help me..
Erm...
I put my results out not to show off or anything..
Like they are worth showing off like that..
I always put my results up..
Always..
Mush be consistent wad..
Cannot one time put, then the other time dun put liao...
Sho I juz put it all up there..
Since it's my blog,
and I dun keep a diary,
sho this is like my diary..
I juz type everything in..
Hmmm..
Today is the most boring day in this May...
I literally did nothing..
I only mugged at night lor..
Juz no mood to mug..
It's like a bit of holiday mood lar..
No feeling of wanting to study..
But thankfully I did study anyway...
Independent
Days after everything has past,
I grew to be independent.
Not relying on you anymore.
I know I can't rely any longer.
I dun want to be pushed away in the end.
I juz wanted to be myself again.
I have no more ideas,
ideas about being with you again.
Can't imagine what the world will be like,
if I'm deprived of you.
But things has to change
and the world took you away from me.
Or I should say that you've never been mine.
I juz wanted to be myself again.
Sometimes when I sleep at night,
I can't fall into that wonderful world.
That world with no pain,
unless it's a nightmare.
The world with joy,
if it's a happy dream.
But dreams are made to be happy
and you're part of it too.
I can't seem to find you there anymore.
I don't know if you're still part of it.
But in my heart,
you'll always own a part of it.
As I write this before I sleep,
I think of you and other things too.
The happy times and those sad ones.
not forgetting those promises too.
I promised you alot of things.
I don't seem to be able to accomplish it.
You once said that promises
are actually meant to be broken.
It's dependent on each individual.
Different mind with different ideas.
I'm keeping to it.
The different promises that I've made.
Now as I try and fall asleep,
I cover you and hide you in my keep.
A place where I can forever see
The smile of yours and saying 'hees'.
This special place that I don't reveal
to juz anybody hiding behind a veil.
You're special and I hope you know
I feel the same way as it is hold.
The feeling of losing the one you love
is worse than dissecting that poor little dove.
Some part of me found in 'INDEPENDENT'.
Did it without even thinking..
Hees...
Peace Outx...
thoughts flow
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12:32 pm
Heys...
The pictures are finally up...
Juz found the time to upload it..
Hees...
Peace Outx...
Saturday, May 28, 2005
thoughts flow
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10:22 pm
Heys...
Gotten back my report book alr..
Hees..
7th in class and 9th in school..
My results already sho below my average alr and I still got sho high postion...
Congrats Tabsy and Clari...
8 and 9 points..
And Tabsy... 1st in school..
1st time ever since sec 1 end of year eh..
Hees..
That time I still quite angry with you eh..
That you got 1st..
Coz I like Clari at that time wad..
Sho you're stealing it away from her..
Hees..
It's over anyway..
Erm..
Sky's report card status
EL ---> 61.6 (B4)
CL ---> 63.9 (B4)
AM ---> 79.5 (A1)
EM ---> 91.2 (A1)
BI ---> 54.2 (C6)
CH ---> 68.6 (B3)
PH ---> 59.8 (C5)
SH ---> 76.9 (A1)
Overall ---> 441.7/600
Percentage ---> 73.6
L1R5 ---> 14
Remarks: Sebastian has strong self-motivation to succeed in attaining his goals. He speaks well and confidently and does not hesitate to seek clarification when in doubt.
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Hees..
Mrs Ong did not refer to my talkativeness in this semester's report card..
The words she give also motivates me..
If I dun do well in EL or any other language,
I feel like I'm also letting her down..
Hees..
For Mrs Ong, my parents, my teachers, my frens
and Ultimately, myself,
I'm going to do well for the 'O's...
I will..
Coz I have strong self-motivation to succeed...
Hees..
MT 'O's is like sho near alr..
I'm starting to feel the tension once again..
Went out with Alan to SL Square..
Bought the Triple pack Worms game..
Hees..
Alan wants to play in the World Party..
And bought it sho that the whole BaiLei Gang can play using LAN connection..
Sho nice of him right..
Haha..
Erm.. He came over to my place and installation began..
Then around 1930, Alan left..
He's going out with XM tomoro..
Sho betta go home earlier..
HG also went out with his darling WC today..
Den it's like now,
I feel sho friendless..
Sho many BaiLei Gang members have GF alr..
Hmmm..
What am I doing...?
Nothing.. That's it..
Hees..
Erm... Nah..
I'm not going to get Jialing's number afterall..
We juz dun suit lor..
Hmmm..
Maybe I dun know her well enough lar..
Hmmm...
Now it's 22:22...
Sho nice..
Peace Outx...
Friday, May 27, 2005
thoughts flow
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7:31 pm
Heys...
Heys...
Heys...
Heys...
Heys...
Why am I sho happy today..?
Hees..
Look who are the new European Champions..
It's Liverpool a.k.a. KOP or Anfield Faithful...
Haha...
How can I not celebrate...?
As I am a hardcore Liverpool fan..
My wishlist is one down..
Hmmm...
I took taxi to school coz I dun wanna be late again only to know that there's no more issuing of Pink Slip..
It's like WTH...
Waste my money..
School's sho boring kaes..
I can sleep and sleep and sleep..
Erm..
Then school end like 1015..
Coz they had the Peirce Family Day thingy..
The ice-cream was really good lor..
Cone like and only 1 buck..
Hees..
My canteen lao bu was like complaining about the family day..
Coz they dun earn any money for the day..
Hees..
I went to LAN for two hours...
Den watch American Idol for a while..
Hees..
My dad then rushed me home..
In the end, I went to J8 to met Ruiz..
Hees..
I was selecting a pencilcase..
Den finally chose the black spongy one..
$11.05 only..
Hees..
Ruiz bought me a pack of stone-kind chocolate..
Den later she wrote encouragement for MT 'O's..
Sho sweet of her right..
Hees..
I'm inviting her to the choir concert..
Maybe paying for her..
Coz it coincides on her birthday..
Erm..
If I din remember wrongly...
Hees..
I overslept on the bus back..
Den.. Got home later..
Luckily my dad din really scold..
Really need to mug properly alr...
Obsessed with Pen-spinning & Being more Fit...
Peace Outx...
Thursday, May 26, 2005
thoughts flow
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9:00 pm
Heys..
I'm back blogging once again..
I'm no longer sick lar..
No more fever running sessions anymore..
However, the dumb stomach is still filled with air...
Can't stand it at all..
Hmmm..
Many say that I'm using betta words and my language is improving as I blog..
Hmmm..
I dunno how true is that..
But at least for this Semster,
I got 65 for EL.. Hees..
I'll continue blogging my usual style if it continues this way..
I'm aiming for distinction in Prelim alr..
Sho that my overall Prelim result can be pushed up to an A2..
Noticed that everyone is busy mugging for Cheena..
I might be over-confident lar..
But I'm prepared to waste the Han-Zi Section alr..
Liverpool against Milan tonight LIVE On 5 and ESPN...
2:35am.. See the crowning of the new European Champions..
Hees.. I sound like those commercial people..
I hope Liverpool wins...
It's in my wishlist..
Sho...
'To any Liverpool Player/Coach/Management who is reading this small insignificant blog'
I was young when I watched soccer.
Saw this big team named Manchester.
I supported them like any others.
They won championship like entertainers.
Everytime I watch this big game,
named Man U vs. Liverpool,
I found it a little lame
that my Man U always falls to the pool.
Two-one or one-nil it doesn't matter,
it matters when the losers are Manchester.
I don't understand the logic behind it.
That why Man U always loses it.
Then I changed over to Liverpool.
That time it's 2001 January No. 2,
KOP won the trebles too.
I felt like the change was worth the while,
until Man U won the title by a mile.
I never regretted changing over to Pool,
coz I know that it's really cool.
This time they travel to Istanbul,
with Milan fans all shouting 'Boo'
I don't care if they're playing fool
but I guess it's really uncool.
I want them to win the Champs
Sho that I can call Rafa our Lamp
The light that changes Liverpool into
the next EPL contender too.
Haha...
I guess that's really lame..
but I hope it'll give the Liverpool players support..
to show them that a real supporter is here...
Erm..
I'm going to rest early for the big game..
Peace Outx...
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
thoughts flow
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9:41 pm
Haiz...
I've neva started a blog entry with Haiz..
But after listening to what happen to me today,
you might sigh with me..
Erm..
1st of all..
I woke up late today..
My dad woke me up in time..
In time not to be late..
I was sho afraid of cold in the morning...
Then I had this stomachache..
Not those need toilet kind of stomachache...
It's those kind where there's a lot of gas/air in the stomach..
I had to fart my way to school..
With occassional burping..
Haiz..
Den when I'm in the toilet during recess,
My dumb N-Gage chose to nose-dive into the basin filled with water..
It's gone..
Can't turn it on anymore..
No more warranty..
Sho I guess I'll juz leave it at home..
Erm..
My new memory card and my dad's sim card wasn't damaged..
Thank God for that..
Then ppeeii ask me whether wanna buy new phone..
Like twin package..
Nokia 3230..
Hees..
of course I want..
But I'm currently poor..
Den now as I type, I'm still 'running with a FEVER'...
Arghx..
I have ample reason to skip school tomoro..
But I think I betta attend..
Mdm Nah will give more tips one..
Erm..
I hope tomoro will be much better..
Pray for me my City Harvester Friends..
That I'll be in tip-top condition for next monday's MT 'O' levels examination..
I'll be resting alr..
Peace Outx...
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
thoughts flow
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10:34 pm
Heys...
I'm back from Malacca..
or Melaka in Malay..
Haha..
Hees...
I met this cute girl there..
by the name of Jia Ling (Well I think sho lar)...
Her actions very cute one..
And she's also very good looking..
I wonder how she finds me..
Maybe not that good looking lar..
Hees..
The good thing is that she's the daughter of my mum's friend...
But the bad thing is that I haven got her hp number...
ARGHX...
How can this happen to me...?
Erm..
I ate alot of stuff in this 2 days trip...
2 whole seafood meals...
Yummy..
The Garlic & Butter Crab is at RANK 1...
They keep eating durian...
Sho I can't stand it...
Hees..
I'll put up the pictures A.S.A.P..
Sho I dun need to talk about where I went and all that..
Back to school tomoro..
Sianz..
Hees..
I'm tired alr..
Peace Outx...
Monday, May 23, 2005
thoughts flow
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12:57 am
Heys...
Juz finished watching Arsenal beat Man U in penalties... OMG..
Paul Scholes... Usually a champion missing a penalty...
All credit to Arsenal and Lehmann who perfomed wonderfully in the FA Cup final..
I predicted a Arsenal win lar..
Even though I know my dearest Physics teacher, who passed me in Physics,was supporting the other...
Erm..
Kinda worried about the Champs League Finals this wed nitez/thurs morn...
KOP versus Rossoneri
which also means
Liverpool vs. AC Milan
I've said before that I'm a supporter of both teams,
so it doesn't really matter who wins..
But I'm more pro-Liverpool, sho, I'm backing them to win..
Kaes..
Out of soccer and into the life of the Sky Genius..
I've gotten back all my results..
Not results that Sky Geniuses will receive
English - B3
MT - B4
E.Maths - A1
A.Maths - A2
SS/Hist - A1
Chem - B3
Phy - C6
Bio - C6
L1R5: 14
Haiz...
Where'm I going to go with 14 points...?
CJC, JJC, PJC, SJC, TampJC or YJC?
Then I rather go poly...
No offence to those above school but my minimum target is at least NYJC...
Erm...
I won't be around for the next 2 days...
I'll be in Malacca..
Hees..
I'll go around taking pictures..
I'm going with my family and 2 of my mum's friends and their families...
They have like 2 girls with the same age as me..
Since I'm available...
Hmmm... Why not meet more options..
Haha...
Erm... Nah...
I better remain single for the time being...
Unless one of them is able to mend my current broken heart...
I'm holding to 2 phones now..
Hees..
One as phone and another as MP3 player..
One's my line and the other is my dad's sub-line..
My dad dun really uses his sub-line sho, not much phone calls for him...
See you people in 2 days time...
I'm leaving in less than 5 hours time...
Betta get some sleep
Take care when I'm not available..
I can't always be there for you..
Furthermore we are juz friends..
Your future boyfriend might get jealous...
Hees...
Peace Outx...
Sunday, May 22, 2005
thoughts flow
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7:40 pm
Heys...
Back from school alr...
There was choir practice in the afternoon from 2-4...
We learned half of a song...
I write the song is the title...
Quite a nice song and we'll sing it last in the combined choir concert...
Hees...
I'm starting to get worried for the exams..
These are are the marks that I know sho far:
English - No idea
Chinese - 60/100 [B4]
Maths - No idea
A.maths - No idea
Social Studies [SS] - [A1] according to Ms Khai.
History - No idea
Chemistry - Not sho well but around a [B]
Physics - 49.1/100 [D7]
Biology - [At least C6] according to Mdm Yeong.
Worst L1R5 Score: 20 (According to C6 for EL, B4 for MTL, A1 for Maths, B4 for A.maths, A1 for Humanities & B4 for Chemistry)
That's very bad score...
Haiz..
I better start working hard for the Chinese 'O' Level paper on 30 May...
I've finally put all the relationship thingy behind me alr...
Hmmm...
But I still have memories of her...
Good one of course..
I promised her not to think of bad memories...
I'm not going to break any promise I made with her..
I'm still going to take care of her the rest of my life..
As a friend of course..
Hees..
I'm going to do the chinese homework..
That's the best 1st step..
Peace Outx...
Thursday, May 19, 2005
thoughts flow
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10:14 pm
Heys...
Hmmm...
I'm back from the Singapore Poly thingy...
I was going to blog more one..
But the stupid lecturer come and nag and nag and say that poly computers cannot use for such stuff one...
Aiyo...
Blogging is not like those chat room or wad lor...
Haiz..
That Dr Ong really CMI lar...
Hmmm.. Mr Amos Goh is much more better..
But felt sho bad sleeping in his lecture in the later part of the day... It's like I slept there on the table lor...
My Paperweight
My Aspirin
My electroplate
Hees...
These're the stuff that I got from the Singapore Poly thing..
It actually turns out to be more beneficial if attended by Sec 3 students...
Anyway, it's like revision to me, Hz and HG...
More details I said...
Hees...
It's basically like that...
I'm like a special Noble Gas, with 7 and 3/4 valency electron and quite stable...
She's like a Halogen, with 7 valency electron and needs another electron before she's stable..
He, her ex-boyfriend, is like an Alkaline Metal, valency electron=1 and need to give away an electron...
Sho why are him and her compatible?
Coz they can combine with an ionic bonding..
Why aren't we compatible?
Coz we cannot combine...
Not with ionic bonding nor with covalent bonding...
Why sometimes I'm not there for my friends, as she said lar..
Erm... Herself and many others are like elements ranging from group 1-7, or transition metals...
They have special bonds...
Why I'm not there sometimes is because I'm quite stable myself...
As Noble Gases, I can choose to bond or break bond as I have alot of ENERGY...
Sho if you feel that you dun have me as a friend, dun panic...
I'm there but juz not felt...
Like we're a mixture and not compound lar..
Hees...
I'm now looking for that special girl that has that remaining 1/4 of an electron to be able to make me SUPER STABLE...
I hope I can find that girl soon...
Hmmm.. I woke up later than normal today...
Maybe I'm running out of that kind of Adrenaline..
That I have when I feel that I can see her at her bus stop every morning..
It's leaving me alr...
Hees..
Betta sleep early today..
It's THURSDAY tomoro..
But shouldn't be that curse alr..
Since I restrict myself from her alr..
As to juz PLAIN GOOD, maybe BEST friends..
UEFA CUP FINALS tonight...
4th Portugese Team in consecutive Europe Finals Sporting Lisbon
vs.
2nd Russia finalist and Champs Lge dropout CSKA Moscow
at
The Alvalade Stadium (Lisbon, Portugal)
refereed by
Englishman Graham Poll...
It's actually Bai Lei Gang birthday today...
Hees... like 4 years old alr..
Hmmm...
The Bai Lei Gang will stay united lor...
Muahahaha...
Peace Outx...
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
thoughts flow
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12:06 pm
Heys...
I'm in Singapore Poly now...
Blogging illegally using the computer of the Polymer lab-like thing...
Hees...
We created Asprin in the lab in level 1...
Then we created this paper weight thing upstairs...
Hees...
I thought through it already..
We're actually not compatible...
Not in the sense of thinking..
More details will come in the next entry..
Peace Outx...
thoughts flow
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8:30 pm
Hey Dearie,
I'm sorry...
My words in the blog earlier is rather harsh..
Hmmm.. I guess you're hurt by it...
I've never made a formal apology before in my life..
Erm... I guess I juz have to concede the 1st one to you...
I'm really very sorry...
I shouldn't have doubted you...
Love is something that's built on trust...
I might have lost it once again...
Hmmm..
Dun let the words above get to you okay..
I was juz really moody earlier on...
Would you please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please forgive me?
I'll never do it again..
I promise you...
*Praying that you'll forgive me*
Monday, May 16, 2005
thoughts flow
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6:36 pm
Heys...
I'm back from school alr..
Actually should be back from going out...
Haiz...
Mr Yee return the chem paper II results alr..
That's lyk 100% efficiency...
But I only got 27/40...
Arghx...
What the hell...?
I'm mlike sho screwed in recent days...
Den Amaths is sho difficult...
Erm...
I left blanks this time...
Hardly I left blanks...
Erm...
Back to the front..
Hees... I went out with Hg, Alun and XM to Orchard earlier on...
We were slacking around from all the sports shops to then in HMV..
Discussed sho much about musics in there..
There are enough discs to bury us...
There're things that I dun understand..
How is it that you said that you wanted to sleep,
and yet, when I smsed you later for an additional information,
you could tell sho many people about it even when you're sleeping?
I know you dun have to explain anything to me..
Coz you're not obliged to anything..
I just feel cheated...
Not as in those very bad scenarios...
But like being bluffed, or lied...
If you dun wish to talk to me,
or feel bothered by talking to me,
tell me straight in my face..
I won't bother you further...
I know that currently,
we're just friends..
I'm not even sure if we are the close type..
You dun even say hi to me when we meet..
Let alone occasionally smsing me to chat...
What kind of close friend is that?
Even those gangster kind which I meet in church for the second time,
will at least say HI!
I dunno..
This is bothering me a lot..
It's like if you like it, you reply me...
If you dun, you dun reply..
What am I to you...?
A kind of toy..
Play with me when you like it and just dump me aside when I'm no longer attractive or you have found something new to play with...
I'm once again being haunted by the
'It's better to be just friends' statement...
I think that I actually meant
'Maybe we shouldn't even be friends'
I said last time that you do affect my mood alot..
Today is a good example..
Sighz...
Even if I'm only worth as a toy in front of you,
tell me...
Sho that I can find new owner to play with it...
An owner that appreciates me...
Someone that knows me...
Someone which I hope is you...
Going to mug a little for Physics...
Physics MCQ is the last paper in the SA1..
Not the last in recent times...
Coz Mother Tongue 'O's is on its way..
Peace Outx..
thoughts flow
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1:01 am
Heys..
Look at the time now..
Wah... 1 am..
And I'm having exams..
What am I still up?
Hmmm..
Dno why...
I juz cant sleep and since the comp is next to bed, why not blog...
Hmmm..
Yesterday (Sunday) was rather boring..
Hees..
She shared her good memories with me...
That might be the 1st step for her to opening up..
I need to understand her even more I guess..
I thought I knew her well enough..
No, I don't..
I dun understand her well enough lar..
Haiz...
Understanding her now become a difficulty
I dun know why
But I certainly feel this way..
She has to open up to me before I can even start understanding the slightest part of her...
Well..
There's once she said that I couldn't stand her whiniess..
Actually I can..
Her, sometimes being unreasonable,
being over whiny,
being moody,
being crazy,
being anything
and why can I tolerate her?
I asked myself before...
'Why am I able to tolerate her whiniess even though I cant stand my younger cousins whinning...?'
The answer is very simple..
It's because I really love her...
I dun need someone that stands my whinning..
Coz I dun whine...
I dun need someone that stands me being unreasonable...
Coz I understand situations well and is seldom unreasonable..
I dun believe it's hard to be my girlfriend..
Probably it's hard for you to imagine me being your boyfriend...
But I'm always good to my girlfriend...
I'm always there if someone bullys her,
if something happen to her..
Even if she's ill at night,
I think I might go over to her place to take care of her..
That's the kind of boyfriend I am...
Not the most perfect...
But certainly, the most essential...
I'm refering myself now like a product...
But I dun mind being a product,
if it's own by you...
Hees..
I guess I'm crapping around..
People around me, thanks for the support...
You people know that I'm true towards her..
Hmmm..
I'm still rather awake..
Die.. Later tomoro cannot think well..
I better try and sleep...
Peace Outx...
thoughts flow
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2:20 pm
Heys...
Hmmm...
I went over to Roystonn's house yesterday...
Played football again..
Den HG, Alun, Roy & I were rewatching the Russell comedy..
I've gotten used to it alr..
Sho not that funny..
HG, watching only the second time, was laughing his ass off..
Alun and Roy also enjoyed..
I was like a passive watcher..
Not much effects..
I was suppose to blog last night...
But got too tired..
Erm..
My laptop got too tired lar..
And I cant be bothered to bring the charger down as I watch television..
I slept at 3..
That's very late for me...
Woke up at 12 plus plus today...
And I juz had a bad argument with her..
Ends up both of us saying sorry..
Sho that's quite ookay..
Haiz...
Sometimes I need company..
You said you need someone to understand you..
But if we were to get into a relationship,
both of us have to contribute...
I also need company..
I also need someone to understand me..
Everytime you talk to me about him,
I'm reminded that I might lose you to him anytime..
Coz you told me that before..
What if day he comes back to you?
That means I'm left with nothing again...
The foundation that I built with my own hands is scrapped away by his one sentence?
His 'I love you' or 'Can we patch up?'
I'm a guy..
and naturally, guys like to take control of situation..
But this time I cant..
And if I cant myself,
I cant even feel secured myself..
How can I provide you with that?
I dno..
I ask myself sometimes...
'Why is the girl that I like sho lyk dun care for me?'
'Am I worth that nothing?'
Well, maybe not as lovers' kind of caring..
What about friendship kind?
I feel sho out sometimes,
do you know that you affect my mood alot?
If you feel down, I also feel down..
If you feel happy, I'm also happy..
The kind of thing you say to me really does perk me up...
Or close me down...
I really love you alot..
And you're always on my mind..
Tell me one day if I'm also on yours...
Den we can be together...
Hopefully I can live til that day...
Hmmm..
Yesterday, when we were watching the Russell thing,
we were like joking..
Coz of the china man part..
We edited it...
'Be a Man...
Do the right thing...
If you dun accept me now, den you move around the place..
And you see a another guy but you dun like and you come back and say 'A, I want you now, like last time', I say 'Noooo, I've changed now and maybe it's different alr'...
'Be a Man'
Haha..
Hmmm.. It's really funny..
If you want that video, come talk to me in MSN..
I'll send you..
It's 45 mins long..
I'm going to mug a little for amaths alr...
Peace Outx..
Sunday, May 15, 2005
thoughts flow
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9:18 pm
Heys...
Hmmm..
Amaths paper is not much of a killer...
But...
I have already gotten sho many mistakes...
Hmmm...
Hopefully I can still get some good results...
Mdm Yeong says that I have passed Bio..
Erm.. Or that she'll make me pass..
Hmmm..
Physics is as good as gone..
I got the 1st two question wrong..
The 2 that I was most confident in..
I'm dead alr..
Chem should be fine..
Sho as Humanities and Maths..
Got no clue for English..
I still can make up for Physics...
There's still paper I..
There's different things that I dno I can do
I dno that I have the ability to hurt you
Hurt you badly too
I still love you as much
as much as the stars out there in the sky
Perhaps you'll never return this love of mine
this love that's described as unrequited
I'm crying as I type this
I still love you sho much
when I 1st confessed to you
I'm sure that it's no infatuation or any simple crush
I know what kind of a person I am
I can fall in love very quickly
but the feeling can go that very instant too
It's different for you
At that time
I like you, maybe it's just like what I said
But that feeling did not go and instead it grew
Instead, I loved you more and more
It's no longer that simple 'I like you' anymore
It has developed to 'I love you'
You might be reading this and thinking
Wwhy am I typing all this for?
I want to make my feeling known
To me and to you
It might end up as unrequited love
or a sweet relationship
I'm willing to wait
even if it's going to be like that for a long long time
I dun mind
and I hope you dun too
I'm feeling tired already..
Haiz..
Exams is going to be over alr...
And we have to meet that problem one day...
Haiz..
Peace Outx
Friday, May 13, 2005
thoughts flow
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